i know what you want, man i know what you want, man i wanna be the one, man i wanna be the one, man i know what you want, man i wanna be the one to give it to you so pull out your gun, man i wanna be the one to give it to you so many layers, so many layers i'll overheat until i fall over come on

one of us to the other ask me one more time and i will think it through ask me one more time i will get back to you (move around like you're on fire) ask me one more time and i will take you in or don't ask at all sink into my skin

forgotten faces, oh you know how they are i'm sick of wishing on a super star that i'll wake up and remember it all but i'm not that hopeful at all misleading nightmares, oh you know how they are i dream of places but don't go very far how many people only live in my mind? please don't tell me that there is nothing to find all these people walk in front of my house i sit and watch the words come out of their mouths i wonder why it's so easy to speak for those who grew up with no pin in their cheek misleading memos they keep sending to me i'm sick and tired and i'm going to sleep underneath all of the layers i'm on you'll find an ecosystem of old songs i'm going down with this ship crash course, crash course i notice everything that you say to me i put it in a place where it's hard to see i'll write you a letter explaining all the stuff we left hanging in the air last time the hidden problems are the worst kind they creep up and pull you in from behind i say be careful on your drive up north don't let them take you, do you know what you're worth? i'm going down with this ship crash course, crash course i'm going down with this shit crash course, crash course

there are chills running up my spine i feel like such a wreck i'm so tired of the lies but there's nothing more to be said i feel eyes on the back of my head i was planning on leaving alone now all my money is spent i'm sick of being at home looking forward to the arguments i feel eyes on the back of my head i can feel your eyes on the back of me wait a while for people to start the party dance around with the tune, sensuality, i can feel your eyes watching across the party where am i?

i've solved the divide a cesspool of implications and maybe i am what i think but in here i'm certain i will save face i lack beauty and grace cause i forget just how to act without my artifacts i'll stay in my room i am a diety creator of this plain, abyssal at the bottom of the ocean everything is artificial but you, you are a black hole you suck the life out of me i will banish you forever until you fall to your knees i love you, please forgive me (i never learned how to) i love you, please forgive me (i never learned how to) i hate you, take my pity (i'll never learn how to) i hate you, take my pity i will save face i lack beauty and grace cause i forget just how to act without my artifacts i'll stay in my room

fucking around, standing tall, open my mouth i don't look pretty at all i need something to hear about tell me a story call me, call me, call me, carnivore he looks like something special, sitting there, sweating like a whore sure you could say anything just to get the bartender to swing but i don't feel any better hearing the way that you sing your thoughts and prayers aloud, jealous of your dying lover's crowd but i would, too, die trying just to get a voice that screams out loud you must be smart, to be keeping your knobby knees apart you feel the silence creep in as you start putting down your guard you won't tell anyone the entirety of what you've said and done what a variety of false realities and battle fronts my ocean's deep enough to swallow up the sun and put her out but the steam would choke us up, too much dirty water in our lungs and dirty thoughts will kill me in the middle of the night i mean, every non-committal dreamer man and rockstar wannabe you said you'd fucking kill me, well hurry up and take your shot i know your visions blurry you always pretend you're what you're not you have no notes or letters, you have no proof you ever were but i write down all my own words, "you have nothing left to make you hurt"

i had a dream you were trying to kill me it didn't look like you but i knew who it was meant to be the steel was cold against my throat you were putting your all into trying to break me open if you wanna come inside come around my door is open at any time if you need to spend the night you take my bed and i'll sleep outside i'm sorry that i backed out i got too high and i got scared of saying things out loud all the sweat running down i can still feel how hot it was in that house you thought i had lost it saw me crying standing in my backyard i get sick just thinking about it i can't stand the sound that comes out of my mouth there's nowhere to go there's no sidewalk we should have went south and made a v in the clouds part of the migration back to your hometown i've never been there before but i would do anything in the world anything to get out of the cold right now i was so afraid of the man falling down in front of us i can't tell who he reminded me of you haven't unlocked that part of my character and the wave hit me when we had to go back home i can't put my finger on what it was i'm not always in tune with my anger until it's gone and i'm left with just a guilty conscience no memories proving they got what they deserved no pictures or videos on my phone left there to tell me i need a movie, i need all the movies that i made back home but i don't think they exist anymore \ it's so hard to keep track of all the things i'm up to i think you know that i stopped that last time oh don't you go oh don't you go it's so hard to try and lose yourself to start over i must've hit a rock in the midst of digging up all of this shit now its just laying around my room surrounded by my forgotten things i would like to end this session i would like to end this session oh don't you go oh don't you go oh don't you go oh don't you go there's nowhere to go there's no sidewalk that runs all the way home there's no scripted words to say when talking on the phone and there's no one around to quietly watch you grow but i remember the church it was warm when outside was freezing an empty public building, it comforted me in a way i can't explain did you mean to lose yourself tonight? did you mean to go back on what you said? did you not consider that i would do the same thing? i will sleep in a different room i will sleep as far away as i can from you because you won't let me know what i can do to make it better and i can't keep forgetting what i've done and thinking i've grown to be a better person and i can't keep feeling bad that i'm preventing you from getting the love that you deserve and i can't keep going fucking crazy and forgetting what love feels like too much is coming up tonight too much is coming up tonight i need to walk home i'm sorry i need to go home