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incoherent poetry
04:15
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you watch me from the wall
a naked image that i always hated
I mean, the look on my face in it
a rampant sundown
but it makes no real difference so
I sit by the window
it was a mistake to bring it up today
I'm still in these clothes
I need to change
but it still stings where the dirt is caked on
I'm covered in moss and dried blood
and grass stains
the past few weeks I've been only living in a day
like some saints describe as "the way,"
have nothing to prepare for
before then I was wasting my time making resumes
trying to do little things each day
(I devote my life to you
a different boy in each different room
until I lay in my last good bed
but my eyes aren't in this tomb because
I want to see you, I want to see you
your hands covering your chest
mouth closed when you're embarrassed
and you're glowing a ruby red
or, instead, like you used to)
you still think I want it to be this?
have all this calamity?
I know you're scared. I know I should stop being afraid, I'm sorry
but I don't want your pity
(I wish I could feel it all for you
enough lust to pound my face in
shutting down against a wall
grasping for straws hard enough to bruise
I used to recognize you when you walked in a room
now I miss out on all the different faces
staring down at my black and white shoes
on the grey carpet)
I just missed you.
I shouldn't have tried to explain
everything I wrote there is true
everything that I wrote to you
but I don't know if I should still send it
I mean, I still have your address so
just know that it's unfinished, I was going to finish it but
some things happened
(I was going to read you a poem by Sir John Philip Sidney,
but I might have. I was going to)
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2. |
lord of flies
02:33
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you should know just what I'm thinking
shame on you, shame on you
you're lucky that I don't start screaming
(don't start screaming)
i have decided I am the lord of flies
you listen to me, I pull blood from the skies
I write the bible, I feed cain to able
I'm the messiah, I am the lord of flies
I have decided I am the lord of flies
I conjure war and eastern genocide
I feed off silence and Violence! Violence! Violence!
I am the lord of flies I am the lord of flies
you should know just how to fix this
shame on you, honey, shame on you
you're lucky that you are not frightened
I'm not frightened
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3. |
I don't have a gun
02:24
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I wanted a fight
I wanted a fight
I've been so cooped up
I wanted a fight
but i don't have a gun
I don't have a gun
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4. |
shacked up
03:16
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I want to own a beat up truck
made in 1979
I see old abandoned barns
and I wish they were mine
I wanna go where no one knows my name
I want to go where they can't find me
at the general store, they see me everyday
20 miles out from the nearest stage
I wanna grow up with my corn and hay
to be recycled with old street signs
the rusted metal
(I would love to run away)
cut into shingles
(and you remind me)
that keep my head dry
(every time you think before you say)
from the rain
(something stupid. I can't take)
I wanna go where no one knows my name
(what remains)
I want to go where they can't find me
(what remains)
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5. |
you've got mail
02:40
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I'm up in the morning
I'm down in the evening
where's my energy?
where's my energy?
fuck this, I don't need this
I don't want to talk to you
I didn't want to hear from you
I feel just like you
you feel just like me
fuck this, I don't need this
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in heaven are fragments of some forgotten rock
floating around with peace in where they are
the aftermath of a star collision
made by you and all of god's shiny parts
but kilonova begs to be in love
(when disaster struck)
and kilonova forgets to turn the stove off
(was it to be in love?)
her flame reaches out and pulls me in
(or was it planned to end just in time)
her desperation sounds
(with the summer?)
like the steam from a just-washed pan
(you were much too young to die)
or the 8 hour sounds of the ocean
(so he put you off to the side)
my worlds were left behind to be inhabited
(to play with your brother and sleep in the moon's craters)
but none of them really apply
(he lets me see
he lets me see you with a naked eye)
I am not one person
even when I'm alone
with my girls in my corner
I could never fall
and I'll be watching the moon for
when you wanna come home
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7. |
denial/fighter
03:41
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you thought you were safe from the devil's hands
comforting yourself with jokes about the fate of the frontman
but you can trust me
you can trust me, I won't leave you
you can trust me (it's not like before)
you can trust me (I'm different now)
it's not a problem
I'm not losing it
what happened?
what happened, what happened to you?
I can't remember
I can't remember when I met you
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8. |
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wait
are you comfortable in your roman skin?
linen cloth to cover up the sin
chiseled into allophane, awake
god has finally made his first mistake
what a shame
to keep you in a public place
wait
are you ashamed when it's not enough?
I wonder if you can feel my touch
I wonder if you feel love at all
awake, and I'll take you off the wall
what a shame
to keep you in
patient until I meet you
I won't speak my thoughts
my love is lost
(to keep you in)
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9. |
bar band basics
02:58
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I think I saw you in
uncanny valley
stocking food along the isle
when we met eyes I stopped looking
but when you turned around I glanced behind
please, say hello to me
say hello to me
say hello to me
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